what's happening to meeee

stomach felt calcified today. like i learned about heart disease last night, made a model of its triggers in class, for fun, because i can. made 4 intricate models of the evolution via natural selection of giraffes today. i drew them differently every time.

how can i still be this. how could i be the same

and go on

-- i can't, necessarily !

-- i couldn't

-- i do

(wed oct 22)