i've come so far

theres so much i can do now that i couldnt before

i check my email every day – notifications are turned on for the app, and when im on my computer i click the tab out of habit a bunch

let’s sit with that. those that know, know that’s huge.

i’ve grown a lot in my ego strength, or weakness, or whatever – whichever one means i dont let shit thats not about me be about me, ultra not jealous kind of thing

feels good

when i can hold it (most often recently)

i can also cook with intuition more now, or almost – almost

its just a quicker go back to that Place. like the block got shorter, so the walk home takes less time; i’m never that far away

Currently Listening To: In The City by CharliXCX ft. Sam Smith, a truer callback to last semester

how do i get past my one-sentence thoughts? [my joint is pink right now]

honestly,

honestly,

I love Movies

no

honestly,

things have been oddly individual lately, for me, but not in a bad way! like, im so accountable for me, and just me, and i dont really have that unending access with anyone, because, single and meaning it, and so i’m alone in that private part of life but so touching shoulders in everything else! there is so much company, and its all so pleasant, so i’m good, i’m good, but – hehe !!!!! – it’s just me bitch.

is that bad? no, really. everyone is [actively] always their own person, anyway, and all of those stories are somehow of the same size, and yours exists in the ring, too. i wanna get deep on this blog. but having any sort of vulnerability is so weird even though thats exacting the craving!!!!

quality time recently has been so delightful. thank you to my 1 on 1s out there. i love you guys

all for now,

k8