i have felt the entire span of human emotions in a day. dont hmu

i have a cruuuusssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

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causes me to reflect on my life, and how much i enjoy it. how much joy i get out of my little activities. if i had a camera crew, a 1 person reporter, i think they would have a good time. ive been feeling this way for a long time. im so happy to love my life and love myself deeply.

because first, i am in love with me. i am in love with living, and endlessly grateful for the person who decides what to do with it. they know the right snacks, songs, task (writing). it's just so right. we always land here eventually, together.

i should probably be reading more poetry. they say you can't really be making any good art without inspiration.
i think i would like a person to be my inspiration. and then i will be just fine.

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i really am such a lover

hehe

heheh

el and sylvie were watching alien when i got home from my outings today, which i wrote about a couple of times actually. ugh. well, i was finally home, with a few more belongings than i started, and a fuller stomach...what's this on the tv? creepy. second thought: damn, she's bad. she really is so fine in that movie let's be so real. couple hours go by i pull up to a party, costumes been changed 100 times atp, i'm shawn fucking mendes. walking into the kitchen i see her again. only this time, real! and, oh! wow! very, very cute! ohhhhhhhhhohhh. hahahahahaha. let's not get ahead of ourselves.

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costume made me think i should get arm tattoos

so it goes.

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7 Seconds - Porridge Radio "until im knee deep in water i can't breathe" "i cant tell you that im wasted on you"

Sun Nov 3 1:41 am , my bed (again)