for once my reason for ignoring this blog is about having better things to do. i've been in a band and devoting most free time & all creative energy to that. instead of writing for here i'm filtering thoughts through lyric structure. i admit not as much turns up, and i miss saying everything. but it's what life demands of me. and i am lucky. i am blessed. that ignorance could be so beautiful. that neglect shows out in a gorgeous way, for once. for once i am facing challenges i would have asked for, if i was missing and shadowed. i am grateful.